my baby, im sitting here not knowing what to do or what to say. I have been numb since the moment I heard this news. Mandarin we have been best friends, sisters for 16 years, thats not long enough. I cant live in a world where you dont exist, just like edward and bella. you are my hero manda i dont know how to exist with out having you here with me. I have noone to call wen i have "personal time" and noone to make me smile wen they make fun of my and my lack of common sense. You were my first real friend and now that i'll never hear your little giggle or see your beautiful blue eyes again i'm lost. i know your with nana and grandpa and i know nana is pumpin you ful of m&m's and her famous corn fritters. Give them big hugs for me and let them know about all the times you saved me from being more stupid than I already am. I miss you more than anyone can possibly imagine. i'll never listen to hotel california again, without thinking of you and smiling. rocky horror and grease 2, they have no meaning without you. i need you to come back.. i love you so much, gilli, trish, nancy and I...we will take care of mommy and daddy and grandma for you. Manda you will never know how much you touched us, you will never know how much you were loves and missed. Wait for me baby girl, we will meet again, and i'll do the biggest gabis kick for you, im not scared cause you cant hurt yourself in heaven <3 i love you best friend. until we meet again babygirl<33 love always and forever, the other half of your brain, v-link..veevee..veronica<3